I've had many old friends that haven't seen me in a while ask me, "where's the curly hair"? I started straightening my hair every day about 2 years ago. I recently got a hair cut and my stylist said the cut would look cute curly too. So I thought I would try it. She was right it was cute but something bothered me all day at work. It wasn't the comments from co-workers because they said it was really cute. It was when I saw myself in the mirror. I didn't see the person who felt confident and whose lost 70lbs. It wasn't the person I saw before I lost all the weight because I always saw myself as thin. It was for the first time I saw myself as everyone else saw me before I lost the weight. I couldn't stand to look at myself in the mirror. The image of me in this picture would flash in my mind as I stood looking in the mirror. Why? Why am I having an issue with my hair being curly? I think it's because I see the old me and the old me was always over weight and unhappy. My straight hair makes me feel skinny, pretty and sexy. For the first time in my life I'm getting positive attention but I don't get that if my hair is curly or at least that's how I felt. I've got to learn that's not the case anymore. The truth is I'm blessed. It's that simple! Curly or Not!

October has been a successful month. I set out to lose 5 lbs and I did it. That makes a total of 70lbs. Wow! I also ran a 5k with the goal to complete it with out stopping. I did it and broke my record by 4 minutes. It felt great!

November starts the Holiday season along with my birthday and anniversary. It can be very temping but I have faith that I can lose 5 lbs by the end of the month and complete another 5k on Thanksgiving day. You see I have these dark brown pants that I bought one size too small. My goal is not only to put them on but to be comfortable in them as well. No muffin top in these pants. I want to be able to breath easy.

I've also committed to do a half marathon in May 2010. I'm going to start training with my friend in December and enter a couple of 10k's between now and then. This is a big goal that's going to take lots of focus and discipline. I also want to go on a cruise with my family so I want to have reached by final weight loss goal by then. With 40lbs to go, we will see what happens. Mean while I'll keep my focus on my November goal.